29/08

Today, feel so blue.....
i know this is the only place i can express my feelings,
because no one will know......

recently, i found out that some of the girls i know split into two different gangs,
how does it happened?
i know partially of it, not all of it.......
but the important things was, WHY????
now i am so lost, it seems like my friends are so fake,
i am giving out my heart, sincerely toward them,
but seems get negative feedback.....

someone told me that ShE is one of the A Gang, which some said were the problematic one,
but for me, i don't think so,
i just keep on thinking the positive side on both......
but one's personalities will tell what he or she is,
i scare...... really fear that ShE will change to another person.....

if ShE really change to another person, honestly, i will feels a small portion of disappointed,
but a BIG portion of sadness......
but the facts keep on telling me, that is true....she might had changed
or this was the true of her.....

i was in dilemma, the holiday which are coming soon,
which way should i go,
i hope that we can have an outing with both the gang once,
but what will happen,
maybe both side will feels unhappy,
how if i go one side??? then which side should i go????
the side where ShE was one of it???? or the side where those guys are in????

hard to choose...... because i am afraid of the reality,
i keep on repel myself from the reality.......
but it was so obvious....... i just keep on telling myself.....
ShE is not that kind of person......

someone help me....... now i feels like a knife stabbed in my heart,
can someone pull it out??????

Please God........